Listening to Man will Make You Question..... excerpt from my "Weekly Scriptures" Page

Goals. Many of us have things we want to accomplish in life and sometimes it feels like we have a few steps that run together or back-to-back. It can be hard to decide if it all has to be done right then, can some thing wait? We wonder if by doing so we ruin the chances on what was put off. We wonder if we have anyone supporting us. And just where or how can we stay focused. 

I have recently returned to complete my last semester of college. An internship. I also needed a job and like spending time with my children. I also need to attend services with my spiritual family (the Church) for my souls sake. I also am married and need to attend my relationship with my husband. I also want to write a book someday...... BUT is there enough of me to go around? My support system I thought I had did not understand what I was going through. They told me to quit! They tested the balances of my marriage. They made me feel like a bad mother for wanting to provide better for my family's future. People that said "call me if you need anything!" they could not be bothered. I felt like I was being pushed from everything I knew and loved to an island of loneliness and wonder. I started to second guess my goals and if God would even get me through. I knew that he "could," but was I worth the effort?

I wasn't going to mention my struggle so soon. And to be honest, the dust is settling and I am doing better at being focused in all that I do. However, I read a scripture this morning and it brought it all back to mind and I realized why I felt the way I did. I was listening to the people who said I shouldn't try. I was upset that when I needed help those people were unavailable. I look back and realize I lost focus and I did not acknowledge that it was God's vision of me that mattered most and His help that I should have relied on. I am sincerely sorry that I took others actions to heart the way I did. I am NOT sorry that I did not quit on my goals (even if I had to put off some tasks i.e. being consistent with this blog).  I'll share the scripture below:

"The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in th LORD shall be safe. Many seek the ruler's favour; but every man's judgement cometh from the Lord"

--Proverbs 29:25-26